Kingett Reads Fifty Shades of Grey - Part 4

STORY BY Robert W. Kingett

Published: August 21, 2013

In chapters 13 through 16, oh my god! I have so many feelings about Grey that I can't even put it in a summary! Intrigued? It's time for Kingett to read Fifty Shades of Grey. 

I'm almost finished with the book and I have many feelings, some mixed, some are clear as a stone, and some haven't developed all the way yet into logical thoughts but one thing’s for sure, I have a LOT of feelings.

Before I dive deep into the feelings, I'm going to provide a summary of each chapter and then talk about what I've read, as usual. I should definitely point out that the plot is now moving and it's moving rapidly. James doesn't stall things at this point and oh my god did I feel the aftertaste after these chapters. I'll get to that in a bit. I like how James developed the characters, at least Grey, enough to where I can completely understand him. Anna, as I have said, isn't fully developed in my opinion. What I mean by this is I don't think Anna is actively developing since there wasn't much development to begin with since her character is so vague. Now Grey, on the other hand, oh my god. Development splatters the character all over like a messy ink splotch. That doesn't change the fact that I still think he's a creepy person who shouldn’t even be with a girl as innocent as Anna, but again I'll get to that in a bit. First though, as I have said, I want to provide a summary of these chapters so I can examine my many feelings for Grey and Anna and their relationship. There are 26 chapters in the book, giving me plenty to expound upon that I haven't been able to say yet. Here we go summaries!

Chapter 13. Anna and Grey go to a restaurant to have dinner and talk about some details of greys contract and Anna stands up for herself. Trust me, I'll elaborate.

Chapter 14. Graduation is finally here for Anna. Anna agrees to be submissive and she learns that Grey is hungry, which, by the way, I don't know why she didn't understand sooner. I'll state, again, that she's read many books. Surely she can read between the lines, somewhat!

Chapter 15. They go over the soft limits and then have sex.

Chapter 16. Grey spanks Anna and Grey sees just how far his submission takes Anna. Trust me; I'll get to this too.

There's always something that makes me shake my head at the writing in almost every chapter I've ever read. In chapter 13, it's a spout of repetition. Anna has a conversation with her mother, which, by the way, is a great way for Anna to tell us what she wants. She finds what she wishes to have in her mother, and that's warmth and love. This, I can't help but nit-pick, is foreshadowing that Anna will leave Grey. I don't know when why this point but Anna will leave Grey. I'm intrigued by this and want to know how it will shape things. Anyway, mom called Anna because mom’s boyfriend has hurt himself and they won’t be able to attend the graduation.

My mom is oozing contrition, desperately sorry not to make my graduation. Bob has twisted some ligament, which means he's hobbling all over the place. Honestly, he's as accident-prone as I am. He's expected to make a full recovery, but it means he's resting up, and my mother has to wait on him hand and sore foot.

First of all, what the hell? I've only seen Anna have an accident ONCE, and that was stumbling into greys office. Anna hasn’t shown any clumsiness in anything else that she's ever done, so why is it reinforced yet again? Second, hand, and sore foot? Now I feel like James is telling me “oh, by the way, just in case you didn't get it, he has a sore foot! It's sore! Ha ha ha! Get it? It’s a pun and a reminder all at once!”

What's interesting about chapter 13 is that it is where most of my feelings are at, and I will focus on chapter 13 because it holds a lot of content. For instance, after the call with her mother Anna and Grey have an email session where Grey shows us that he isn't budging from his oh so weird, disturbing ways. As I have said BDSM isn't disturbing among two consenting, knowledgeable adults, but Grey is beyond role-playing. He's controlling and I don't think this is healthy in today's relationship. For instance, he writes an email that plainly says that he isn't going to change. Have a look.

I refer to my e-mail dated May 24, 2011, sent at 1:27 and the definition contained therein. 

Do you ever think you'll be able to do what you're told?

Some people might argue with me that this is just in the bedroom. It's not, so shut up Grey, stop trying to be controlling! You have a lot of issues that shouldn’t even be mentioned to someone so innocent who wants more…. Moving on, I'll get to that in detail soon.

With the good comes the bad as well, and the weird. Here's another part that made me shake my head in chapter 13. Why? You'll see.

"I see." Paul looks positively crestfallen, stunned even, and a very small part of me resents that he should find this a surprise. My inner goddess does, too. She makes a very vulgar and unattractive gesture at him with her fingers.

Paul is her boss at work? I don't know. This all happens at the hardware store, and if her inner goddess is flicking him off then why doesn't she just say that? I don't understand what her inner goddess just did, but I'm moving on from the weird into the weirder with Grey and the dinner.

Anna and Grey sit down at dinner where Anna actually starts to show some freethinking by way of taking her own car, and not doing everything he tells her to do, and insist on being her own person and even saying things that shape her strong inner beauty. For instance, Anna learned something very valuable doing her research in chapter 11.

"You know this contract is legally unenforceable."

"I am fully aware of that, Miss Steele."

"Were you going to tell me that at any point?"

He frowns. "You'd think I'd coerce you into something you don't want to do, and then pretend that I have a legal hold over you?"

"Well ... yes."

Quite frankly that's the exact image I had in my mind about Grey. I knew he’d do something like that. I suspected without hesitation that he’d control just enough to trap her and thinking that she was bound legally. Why did I think that right off the start? Let me explain the many feelings I have racing around my head.

Anna is innocent and Grey is abusive and controlling. That’s pretty stamped in my mind. Upon doing these reviews I've had many people tell me that Grey really does love Anna and he’d never abuse her in any way. I hate to tell all of you but what Grey is doing with Anna is a form of psychological abuse. There's a reason that he does this though, he doesn't understand that he's abusing Anna. Anna, deep down, I believe, somewhere, realizes it. Here’s why he's abusing her. BDSM is not abuse. It's a sex practice even though it's not common. It's a sex practice where trust is a major factor in the relationship and that's also explained here in chapter 13. This isn't a relationship however, this is greys abusive revenge. Let me explain further. Back in chapter one we saw, along with Anna that all his employees were blonde. Anna isn't. Grey was sexually molested by Robinson. I've been asking why does he want to have Anna so bad and I believe I've figured out why. He wants revenge on what happened to him, subconsciously. He isn't this way with any blondes, hence why they flood his business. Grey has been affected by Robinson’s assault on him so he's taking it out on Anna by abusively controlling her, stripping her of free will and thought, even using sex to get what he wants. I'm not the only one who has realized this. Anna has as well.

Oh my, we've cut to the chase quickly. How far he can take me. Holy shit. What does that mean? I swallow. Peel me out of Kate's dress. I feel the pull deep in my belly. Muscles that I'm now more acquainted with clench at his words. But I can't have this. His most potent weapon, used against me again. He's so good at sex--even I've figured this out.

Grey is stripping Anna of her individuality, not letting her grow and foster. This is the equivalent of keeping someone in a cage, and he shouldn’t be excused because he has had a bad past. I myself am a survivor of child abuse and neglect. I've managed to make the choice to leave my mother and make my life good. That was a good choice that I've done. I've made some bad choices as well. In high school I met a very nice girl. We became boyfriend and girlfriend where I lied to hide my secret of finding men sexually and romantically attractive. It almost caused her a friendship with another girl. Even though we are very good friends to this day, still, that was a bad choice I made. I was able to make those choices that shaped me as a person. Grey chooses to be this way. It's all about choice and he isn't making the right ones and ruining it for Anna. Grey isn't giving Anna the freedom of choice and that's psychological abuse. You’re keeping someone locked in a cage. Sure he says that she can quit at any time and then he fucks her into submission. Since this isn't a freethinking relationship, this isn't love. This is abuse at its core.

Grey IS ABUSIVE! He’s the most abusive man that I have ever met on the face of the planet! I can’t stress that enough! This isn't love; this is abusive revenge that shouldn’t be praised by the media. Femininity isn't supposed to bow down to this kind of trapping. This is pure abusive bullshit wrapped up in pretty sex scenes. This is not HEALTHY for any woman to believe that Grey is a nice man. He's exacting revenge. The fact that Anna is even considering this is beyond logical!

On the one hand, she loves the sex, on the other, she clearly wants more. I don't understand why Grey just doesn't let her go! Oh wait, she reminds him of Mrs. Robinson, I bet you! Jesus. Anna even says she wants more, several times!

As I drive away, my chest constricts, my tears start to fall, and I choke back a sob. Soon tears are streaming down my face, and I really don't understand why I'm crying. I was holding my own. He explained everything. He was clear. He wants me, but the truth is I need more. I need him to want me like I want and need him, and deep down I know that's not possible. I am just overwhelmed.

This is so heartbreaking I can't even function! Arg!

After Anna goes away from Grey for a while, she can think, but that's ruined when she meets Grey at her graduation in chapter 14. She ACTUALLY agrees to become greys submissive! Oh my god, Anna, please don't subject yourself to abuse. Please don't. I don't understand why femininity isn’t banning the book. This isn't good! Before I rant more though, I have to point out a what the fuck part in chapter 14.

My jaw falls to the floor. What? Christian was hungry once. Holy crap. Well, that explains a great deal. And I recall the interview; he really does want to feed the world. I desperately rack my brains to remember what Kate had written in her article. Adopted at age four, I think. I can't imagine that Grace starved him, so it must have been before then, as a little boy. I swallow, my heart constricting at the thought of a hungry, gray-eyed toddler. Oh no. What kind of life did he have before the Greys got hold of him and rescued him?

Anna, seriously? How in the hell could you have NOT known he was hungry as a child. What the fuck? Anna, you’re kind of dense for someone who reads a lot.

I'm guessing that Anna, out of pity, says yes to become Grey’s submissive in chapter 14. She stands her ground again in chapter 15 as they go ahead and work out limits but don't sign anything. Chapter 16 though, Grey spanks Anna, leaving her with this thought that breaks my heart even more.

I'm so confused by my reaction. I remember him saying--I can't remember when--that I would feel so much better after a good hiding. How can that be so? I really don't get it. But strangely, I do. I can't say that I enjoyed the experience. In fact, I would still go a long way to avoid it, but now ... I have this safe, weird, bathed in afterglow, sated feeling. I put my head in my hands. I just don't understand.

Anna, there are better men out there. Trust me. There are way better men out there.

I just don't even know what to think about Anna anymore, especially after she puts this whole thing on Kate. What the fuck?

I flush at the memory. Jeez, I wanted to spank myself after that question. So Katherine Kavanagh is responsible for all this, and if she'd gone to that interview and asked her gay question, she'd be sitting here with the sore ass. I don't like that thought. How confusing is this?

Anna, shut up. This isn't Kate’s fault. This is your own fault. Why does Anna act like this? Grey should leave her alone! He really should!

I'm almost at the end of the book and I don't understand how anyone can call this a healthy relationship. I'll say it once and I'll say it again, this is the most abusive relationship I've ever read, and not because of the BDSM, but because of Grey taking away Anna's thoughts and subjecting her to something she isn't even wanting, and on top of that seducing her! I'm almost at the end of this book and I'm just appalled at how many women don't see the oppression and the defacement of femininity that's taking place in a goddamn best seller! The price of freedom shouldn’t be something anyone gives up because they don't want to be alone. This isn't a good place to be, and I really hope Anna will change or realize that amidst all the Grey there's someone who has a better grasp of his issues. Part five of Kingett Reads Fifty Shades of Grey coming soon!


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